[ He's silent after her explanation, considering it. ]
...I suppose I've experienced both of those emotions at different points, and you're right. The endless torture is much easier to get used to. If I had to pick one to experience again, I would choose that.
But this isn't something I care enough to hold a grudge over. I'm not even sure why I called you.
I was the one who decided on that. I told Rose I'd do it. They warned me that whoever came out, friend or not, would hate my guts for it. And my only thought was "The worst possible person it could happen to would be Zenith... just let it be anyone else."
And, well, of course, it's as if the demon can read your mind.
She just told me she didn't want to die. "Even if it's painless, or we get revived right away." And, now you tell me she has a "explode on death" bomb, and it makes complete sense.
...Do you need a bribe? Or an emotional appeal? Because, I can give you either. I can offer fruit. I can tell you I never regretted jumping in front of you that day, for even an instant...
I went into the world tree and tried to remove all traces of myself from the world. It didn't work as I hoped it would, but it removed all collective memory of me and what I had done.
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...I suppose I've experienced both of those emotions at different points, and you're right. The endless torture is much easier to get used to. If I had to pick one to experience again, I would choose that.
But this isn't something I care enough to hold a grudge over. I'm not even sure why I called you.
It just felt like something I should do.
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I was the one who decided on that. I told Rose I'd do it. They warned me that whoever came out, friend or not, would hate my guts for it. And my only thought was "The worst possible person it could happen to would be Zenith... just let it be anyone else."
And, well, of course, it's as if the demon can read your mind.
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...but it's not as if I haven't felt something like that before. I did not enjoy reliving it, but I've made my peace with such emotions already.
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... Azdaja.
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The dragon..? Why?
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Well, I was going to kill her, but she disappeared after I got her arm.
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... Where's the logic, Zenith? Wouldn't all of Clover die?
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[sighs]
Far be it for me to say who you can and cannot kill...
Can you do anything but outright kill her, in the future? Even if you know the eye is shut?
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She just told me she didn't want to die. "Even if it's painless, or we get revived right away." And, now you tell me she has a "explode on death" bomb, and it makes complete sense.
...Do you need a bribe? Or an emotional appeal? Because, I can give you either. I can offer fruit. I can tell you I never regretted jumping in front of you that day, for even an instant...
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I'll avoid her if I can. I'd even apologize for the arm thing if Rose hadn't gotten their revenge on me very quickly with your little stunt.
I think we're even. I have no desire for vengeance, if that's what you're afraid of.
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I was definitely afraid of vengeance. "The creeping fear of dread..."
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Like I said, it's better it was me. Reliving the worst experience of my life is still just reliving it, rather than causing any new trauma.
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No, not exactly.
I went into the world tree and tried to remove all traces of myself from the world. It didn't work as I hoped it would, but it removed all collective memory of me and what I had done.
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Hah.
You and I really are a lot alike... more than I ever could have thought.
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Which is why no matter what happens, I'll make sure you won't have to go back to where you came from.
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