I went into the world tree and tried to remove all traces of myself from the world. It didn't work as I hoped it would, but it removed all collective memory of me and what I had done.
That last ritual where we 'thought' it was going to turn ugly, but then didn't...
It was very awkward. At the very start of the ritual when people were deciding who to 'hit,' thinking it would be to hurt or at least main, suddenly everyone in Rose is doing the usual process of elimination. They were saying "we can't hit Lily, or Daffodil, or Bluebell..." and, well, that's leaving very few flocks we can 'hit'. And someone is asking me 'Do you want to say Clover is off limits?' and... it's very hard to say "please disregard your dear friends who you know from your own world, even before the pasture."
...but I won't consider it a betrayal if Rose ends up hitting us. I'd rather that didn't happen, but we tend to hit Rose over other flocks ourselves. It'd be hypocritical of me to demand that of you.
[ "angie is a liability" is what he takes out of that ]
Well, regardless... Rose tends to be rather aloof, don't they? You don't have to worry about pushing our little "alliance" over whatever else they have going on.
You certainly took charge of your own destiny when it came to forming an alliance with me.
...but who knows. I wouldn't have considered myself a "leader", either. The last time I was put in charge of subordinates, I was widely regarded as the cruelest member of my organization.
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Date: 2024-06-17 08:49 am (UTC)I was definitely afraid of vengeance. "The creeping fear of dread..."
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Date: 2024-06-18 01:03 am (UTC)Like I said, it's better it was me. Reliving the worst experience of my life is still just reliving it, rather than causing any new trauma.
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Date: 2024-06-18 01:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-06-18 04:43 am (UTC)No, not exactly.
I went into the world tree and tried to remove all traces of myself from the world. It didn't work as I hoped it would, but it removed all collective memory of me and what I had done.
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Date: 2024-08-15 09:14 am (UTC)Hah.
You and I really are a lot alike... more than I ever could have thought.
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Date: 2024-08-16 01:47 am (UTC)Which is why no matter what happens, I'll make sure you won't have to go back to where you came from.
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Date: 2024-08-16 12:10 pm (UTC)[...]
I know making these promises are dangerous, but as much as I can, I won't betray you.
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Date: 2024-08-17 12:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-18 10:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-19 05:46 am (UTC)I suppose I can allow it.
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Date: 2024-08-19 06:04 am (UTC)It was very awkward. At the very start of the ritual when people were deciding who to 'hit,' thinking it would be to hurt or at least main, suddenly everyone in Rose is doing the usual process of elimination. They were saying "we can't hit Lily, or Daffodil, or Bluebell..." and, well, that's leaving very few flocks we can 'hit'. And someone is asking me 'Do you want to say Clover is off limits?' and... it's very hard to say "please disregard your dear friends who you know from your own world, even before the pasture."
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Date: 2024-08-20 12:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-20 06:01 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-20 06:51 am (UTC)...but I won't consider it a betrayal if Rose ends up hitting us. I'd rather that didn't happen, but we tend to hit Rose over other flocks ourselves. It'd be hypocritical of me to demand that of you.
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Date: 2024-08-20 07:28 am (UTC)You've always 'felt' like the 'leader,' you know? Not just a 'might makes right,' way, but also in a 'planning' way.
That's not exactly how Rose works.
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Date: 2024-08-20 11:04 pm (UTC)I was aware that Rose was a bit of an outlier when it comes to group dynamics, though.
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Date: 2024-08-21 03:31 am (UTC)To put it mildly.
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Date: 2024-08-21 08:25 pm (UTC)...she doesn't seem like the type to want to lead, no. I've gathered that much. Admittedly, no one Rose really seems like the taking charge type.
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Date: 2024-08-22 01:23 am (UTC)["Angel Devil's emotional vulnerabilities are many," is implied.]
I'd say if not Levi, the next likely would be Belle.
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Date: 2024-08-22 05:18 am (UTC)Well, regardless... Rose tends to be rather aloof, don't they? You don't have to worry about pushing our little "alliance" over whatever else they have going on.
...I certainly am unlikely to protect Rose.
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Date: 2024-08-22 05:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-22 05:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-08-22 05:58 am (UTC)...Well, maybe not directly.
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Date: 2024-08-22 06:02 am (UTC)...but who knows. I wouldn't have considered myself a "leader", either. The last time I was put in charge of subordinates, I was widely regarded as the cruelest member of my organization.
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Date: 2024-08-22 06:06 am (UTC)[she laughs]
Those times feel so far away, now.
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